How do you explain..
a father abandoning his first child, his only daughter and the second wife doing her best to wipe that child from his memory?
that the girl is worthy and wanted and loved even though 26 years have gone by and no matter how hard she tries to be a part of his life and have him give a damn, time has run out
she isn’t even told he has died and was never even supposed to know he was sick.
How do you explain in a way that doesn’t sound hollow and meaningless against the years of truth
when you want to breathe a sigh of relief because the waiting and hoping are now one less knife held to a beautiful tender heart.
what a fool I was to think he even deserved this precious gift
where do we go from here?
hopefully forward and not back, towards a brighter future for all and not a step back into the darkness where the fearful hide